...here i am again... back to hell for me

do i fucking have to post it here for anyone to read what i say? or is anyone listening here either???? is anyone even out there? HELLO? fuck it... no one is fucking listening....

i can't help but ask myself... am i back where i started? did i really come all the way around... full circle... and end up back where i started?

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my fucking father is an asshole... and my stupid fucking comp is broken... oh and it gets better... i could fix it... but i would have to erase it ALL!!!!! maybe i could get it back... but i mean what the fuc?!

whatever... i don't see what the point is even posting this here... no even knows this place exists anymore... i havent been here in months... this site sucks... my damn comp which i finally got to truely work for the first time gets some kind of virus or something... wonderful... i want to kill someone... where was my antivifus? where was my firewall? i smell a lawsuit ....

... this is so boring... i should probably get to work... but i don't feel like it... oh well...

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...i hate this... i'm tired... i'm completely out of energy... and i want to die... but what's new?... whatever... my life sucks... i give up... again... don't think i'm just some kind of quiter or something... but it just isn't even worth trying anymore... what am i getting out of all this? a life of bullshit.. a living hell i can never escape no matter what i do... in debt because that is the way the world works... well guess what... that's not how MY WORLD works... so fuck you. i should take back my life... and just go die... at least i will die with some dignity... instead of the beaten down wasted existance they want me to be. as i've heard saiod somewhere i can't think of at the moment... i'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees. i'm sick of everyone thinking they can just walk all over me and get away with it... which so far they have because defending yourself is a sin and a crime.... well fuck you... i don't give a shit anymore... what's the point anyway... trying to please everyone... and of course i don't even remember what i was saying here so if it doesn't make since than forget it... my mom just walked in and started yelling at me cause my dad wont help pay for whatever involving me cause i turned 18... and then started yelling cause i have to either do better in school or get a job... or something... i don't know... i forget now...  whatever... i'm too tired to finish whatever i was saying now... and i forget what i was saying anyway so i guess that's all...